Have you been born to a wayward mother? Is your father out of the picture or just a callous guy? We’re you born with a deformity? Have you been dealt a hard hand at the start of your life? Tell me what is your attitude to all it?

 I wanted to be understanding and pity you, but then I realized that this is not the way to think about such things. Plus my pitying you or you pitying yourself will get you nowhere.

A boy goes hiking up a hill and out of nowhere a rock breaks off the side of the cliff and hits him in his legs. He recovers but is partially crippled in one leg. These gory stories abound in the news. Or even more common, you were a mistake baby. Nobody wanted you or planned for you. Your birth was resented by both your married parents, or young single mother or one night stand dad. Such an innocent thing you were, you never asked to be born. Same as the boy, he never asked for the loss of his leg.

Whatever your sad story or sad beginnings, self pity or bitterness is never the answer. Choose instead to be a victorious human being, full of competence and good character. But Sher, where do you even begin to get these things you may ask?

I answer, If you want it you will seek it out everywhere. For the answer to this I can only use myself as an example. From an early age it came from inside, character came from reasoning with myself, it came from observation, it came from learning at school and when I outgrew these methods and wanted to know more, I looked to television. However I found the messages from TV contradicting, shallow, and sometimes offensive to my inner soul. For example I remember listening to B2K song called ‘ uh huh’ and thinking ‘aren’t we all young teenagers? why are these lyrics talking about sex like we are grown people, doesn’t Lil fizz know he can get a girl pregnant, Talking about ‘ I’m only fifteen what I need with a wife’ but hinting at having sex with a girl.

I thought maybe wisdom can be found around the people nearest to me but they were shallow, my parents were shallow and no one displayed any exemplary character traits, all were just wishy washy. 

At the time I couldn’t pinpoint why I felt so out of place in the world, in my country, in my own family. However thank God that I was a seeker. I sought out wisdom, I sought the only person that knows it all and I sought him out with sincerity and with a sincerity that only kept growing and being refined.

I said to God, I can’t hide anything from you anyway so I might as well I live truthfully and as best as I can in front of you. What’s the point of being clean on the outside in front of people but dirty on the inside in front of You. Better I be clean on the inside in your eyes even at the expense of being seen as dirty by others. That’s how I’ve always been and thought. 

To this day I know for sure, there is only one person who will never let me down, who will always have my best interest at heart and who can satisfy my insatiable appetite for understanding-Only God. We can chat and banter on for eternity and God would still be interesting to me. There will still be something new about Him to learn, ah so sweet!

As a teenage girl, I thought to myself 

‘I live in a time where people are unfaithful to each other, hard hearted, mocking and vicious. The country that I am born in has little opportunities and is violent.’

 I asked God constantly, 

‘Why was I born? Why did you give me such a upright character to be wasted in such a time like this? But even so I was determined to make the best of my life. When I could finally define what the best of my life was, it started by watching Sailor moon at around age twelve turning thirteen, I was touched deeply by the love between Serena and Darien( Usagi and Momoru). I knew for sure that was what I wanted, to meet and love only one man for the rest of my life and in return, to be loved with such sincerity. 

Then at around early twenties I knew for sure I needed freedom, I could never work for someone or in a corporate setting for the rest of my life. I was just too straightforward and straight talking to play that whole game of facade and lies. I determined in my heart that in order to get freedom I needed money. Previously I didn’t see money as a big deal, because I always had it in my mind never to love money because loving it was the cause of people being willing to do the vilest things to get it. But I remember one day having the strong thought that I will never be able to do the things I want to do unless I obtain money. I remember thinking I will obtain money only using God’s ways, because I remember reading the Proverbs and it saying that abundance from God brings no sorrows. So I sought out more of the Proverbs of the bible for any hints on wealth, abundance, money etc. Fast forward to meeting my husband, he and I going into business and to now being taught by God the ills of being money hungry, to now executing his will of a money free world. Now I am living in my divine purpose, chatting it up with God daily whenever I have questions for him. I chuckle cause I remember how I yearned for this type of relationship with God ever since my acceptance of Jesus/Yeshua as my saviour when I was nineteen, crying on the floor because I had felt like keeping my resolution to wait for my husband from God was just foolish, keeping my virginity was in vain, I was being mocked for it.

I remember back then at nineteen and crying out to God telling him I was sorry but I couldn’t follow him and get a boyfriend much less a husband if I stuck to his principles- everyone wanted to have sex or kiss.

At nineteen, I was talking with one guy and he had the audacity to take my first kiss, publicly too not even in private and without even asking me and I went along with it so as not to be embarrassed and to seem cool. He and I didn’t go anywhere in terms of becoming boyfriend and girlfriend, looking back at it now he was probably just a player in one of the many schemes my family and friends cooked up against me.

 Oh reader, I laugh at these things now, because they have all been used by God to shape my character in some way. Let me tell you who I was, what my start was, I started out as Sherika Trott in this world, so very naive and easy going, but so very hated by my own, and I never even knew it! Yet with all the plotting s and all the schemes, always divinely protected. 

I had already committed myself to God from and early age at around 5 or six, it happened one Sunday when I was in church with my Grandma and I remember thinking how fake everyone in the church was and that God was not inside it. I couldn’t sit still so my Grandma got angry and sent me outside. I felt so good being outside that I began singing ‘ birds in the tree tops, fishes in the sea, flowers in the garden bowing down their heads, angels are singing praises unto the Lord, so why should I why should I not praise the Lord?’ and I sang and sang and hopped about so joyfully and then I looked up to Heaven. That was the last time my Grandma and I ever went to church and the last time I ever praised God or communicated with him so truthfully, again until my teenage years when I wanted to find out the purpose for my life.

Today is July 30, 2025. I had the thought about a child being born to a single parent household and being labeled a bastard. I thought to myself, it’s not the child’s fault it’s parents suck so why should the child suffer? Then I realized this is not the way to think, because there are many things that can happen to us that is not our fault, that we are completely innocent of but still have to face some consequences. 

Now to the meat of the answer.

No matter the circumstances your born with or that you fall into along the way, we can always chose to use it to develop character and competence. These two things are the levelers of the playing field of life. For example someone could be born with the best of circumstances but chooses to develop a shitty character and be incompetent. 

The meatiest part of the answer is this – turn to God and seek him out for all your answers, after all it’s not like he doesn’t know you were dealt a shitty hand. However knowing God, my good friend, my counselor and father, by the time he is done telling you his perspective you will jump for joy that you have no hands.

Peace Out

World Ruler Musings